Jobs, School, and the Emergency Room

    Considering how incredibly busy I have been lately, I am surprised to find myself for the most part happy. I have just recently taken on another job, which despite all of the hard labor (unloading over 2,000 boxes) and long hours, I actually enjoy. The management and team members are really great and I feel like I am learning a lot and thinking about books in new ways.  I find myself in some sort of nerdy stupor to be surrounded by both an amazing quantity of books at my disposal but also other employees that share similar interests outside of academia. I am still of course enjoying my other job at the writing center and value my time with the students, as it is a small precious window describing what is to come in my teaching career. I am also really enjoying my classes this semester, if not always the material- I really appreciate the teaching. I believe that the professors are invested in the students which always inspires me to be better. 

      Today I had to go to the emergency room and tomorrow I have to go to the dentist to try to rid myself of this horrible mouth pain due to an emerging wisdom tooth- which I am sure if I was not medicated I would try to turn into some sort of statement about life, or the pursuit of knowledge but after three different types of medications we shall leave that as it stands.  I feel that the combination of this craziness, the jobs, the stress, school and paper writing would normally really defeat me, if not discourage me, but I am feeling surprisingly strong and content. There is something so gratifying in overcoming obstacles and learning to stand on your own two feet (when you are perhaps not nearly fainting due to vertigo related to tooth complications). It gives me confidence in my decision to continue my studies, even though it is so costly, because it is what I love. I feel like this unexpected surge in strength has come from believing that this career is what I really want, and if it takes two jobs and no sleep to achieve it-then that will be my path and the result will be all the more rewarding. I also believe that the friendships I have made have really inspired me to be better and to have courage to continue this dream.

     Thanks to everyone for believing in me and perhaps teaching me to believe in myself.